Last week I said something about being goalless. Per usual, that may have been an oversimplification of what I meant. The calm of the mornings, the commitments to stillness first, both of immense value, feel like they’ve almost killed a little of the aggressiveness needed to achieve. Maybe that’s the wrong words but for sure the right ideas. To achieve, to be our best takes a dose of reckless abandon. 

You ever have that thing you are dreading doing?  It hangs over you for days. Maybe weeks, months, years. It may not be hard but you’ve put it off. An open loop. Then you do it and it takes you like 10 mins and is done. I probably have like eleventy six things like this and it never fails to amaze at how easy it is to do most of them when I just attack. 

I’ve felt like the last month or two I’ve become especially adept at letting things go. To ease in to the day. This is part on purpose, but also due to the last 6 months. Trying to be calm and ease in was a needed exercise. Now I feel like I need a month or so of hitting the ground running. Of a full on attack. 

Of course the truth is in between. It always is.  I just wonder if we don’t need to embrace the extremes to kick start our system. I mean I’m not saying I think I need this. I know I do. 

For me to do it, I decided to give myself margin.  I am walking out of my door at 4:45 this morning. 22 mins from now. Writing is still important to me so I got up a 4. The attack may need to start early so I’m starting early to also give me some time to embrace what’s important and what works. 

It likely needs a better plan than I’m implementing today but maybe not. I’ll launch headlong in after my exercise practice and get a couple things moving immediately. I’m hopeful for momentum and usually this is the way. I’ll keep it going as long as I can. My day is kind of planned until 5:30  pm, so we will see. 

There’s really not a lot more to it than that. This period may last a few days and maybe a few weeks. I just feel it. A push from inside. Dying to get out. Maybe that’s the coffee too. I’ll take it. 

Attacking the day vs. easing in. 

We’ll see how it goes. 

Headlong. 

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