If everything is expected then where do we find joy. It’s not that I just take everything for granted. Well maybe it’s part that, but I for sure I ruin everything through thinking nothing is that big of a deal.

The other day I read a post from an acquaintance I know. He has gone from an overweight guy, to a runner, to a triathlete, to creating a successful support group (aka Tri club) and is now a coach, certified on multiple levels. I looked at his trajectory and thought, that’s not far from what I did, yet he’s in a space of positivity and joy and I am in lying in expected non excitement.

I’ve been lucky enough to work in the running/triathlon business for over 15 years. I’ve don’t a lot of cool things. I’ve “accomplished” a lot of physical goals along the way. That’s the reason I got into this in the first place. For a love of the activity. But do anything long enough and the flame can flicker.

My flame has been doing that for a bit now. Don’t get me wrong,I’m thankful for the life of have. It’s just hard to maintain energy for anything after 15 years.

I also come to the athletic arena knowing I’m not that special of an athlete. There are multiple levels of “better” than me so I don’t think that much of what I do. This in a word is bad.

I have said before that if everything is amazing, nothing is. The same holds true for the converse. If nothing is a big deal, then nothing is, ergo what’s the point in doing anything?

I’ve also said you should celebrate and take credit. Yet I do neither. I ruin by omission and downplay. What that does is suck the life out of doing.

As with everything, recognizing is the first step. Here’s to trying to turn that around.

#hugsandhi5s